Because of this time consuming stuff that's piled up in my life, I don't want to go into detail on it now, but I do want to go into detail about how God is working it out in the silent moments, so that I'm THINKING throughout the day and not just DOING.
He's been talking to me through various ways over the past three weeks that I've been here, and today it has truly caught up with me, like it does every time I read a chapter out of "Crazy Love" : Francis Chan. Many days when I wake up and am not rushed to get to class, because I stayed awake too long the night before (that would be 11:30pm for me), I wake up with God, reading a chapter about what I need to be aware of during my day, and He sets it up perfectly each time.
It all started on the way home this last weekend from spending Labour Day in Toronto with my relatives and family. On the drive home, I plugged in the CD player and listened to "Heaven is For Real", a testimony of one child's experience going to heaven and coming back. The one thing that he said that rang constantly in my ears after the story was over, was that God REALLY loves the little children.
Now as you can guess, that doesn't happen in college, there are no little children, that is the last thing you want to be. You want to be in control in your life, knowing what major, degree, and career you will be looking forward to in the coming years. There is no dependence on a Creator and God of the universe, because you know you best.
So I bought this book, in hopes that it would keep the personal relationship with God and I growing, i didn't have that in mind at first, but that's where it's headed. Because in this new atmosphere of getting busy and taking advantage of your life like you are ignorant to death, controlling your future and being so critical and scholarly, you can easily forget that we are nothing compared to the One who knows us better than ourselves, and created everything around us. We can easily forget that we are spinning around the sun, a blazing mass of fire, and laws of gravity are holding us down, and we're surviving. We can easily forget that each day we live, is not a normal day, at all.
Through this book, that's what my Lord has reminded me of. That He is there, He is my Father, I am only a child, but one with a mouth that will speak with boldness when He asks me to, and a faith that knows without a doubt He can do anything and He answers my prayers.
The final thing that it reminds me of, is not to take advantage of what time I have on this earth, to truly LOOK at people, value them, and love them with God's love. Because as my little profile says, I have been called to come to IUB, this was not my decision either, and since I am not here for myself, I need to be in God's wisdom and His love, showing His light and purity in every conversation. I am His.
I will not lie, this is very difficult to do when the world around us very much likes to be in the drivers seat, which is opposite of where we are supposed to be, in comparison to God. It is very difficult to truly love people, when there's so many who have so many shallow conversations. But in the niche that God has fitted me into, I will bloom and flourish- to truly love the Lord with all my HEART, my SOUL, and my MIND. In the love that I share with others, the time that I spend with Him renewing, and the time that I spend studying His Word, which He has led me to do to even get class credit :)
More will come later, but I thought even more than knowing the details of college life yet, you need to know where I am.
With my Lord.
which is the most important relationship and topic that could ever be mentioned anyway.