Hm...
I thought to myself about this website last night, how I haven't been writing on it for anyone to see, and how I actually haven't even been realizing how much progress I've been making with God or just in general since I've been home...
I've already been home 6 months, and in Indonesia, so many more things had already happened. So many more blogs had already been written, with reports, details, trips, adventures...
I'm not missing any of these things... expect the fact that I've been so busy that I have not been able to keep in tune with how I've been growing and changing. Granted, I haven't had time, but I feel like not being able to reflect on where you are will help you only end up in a place that you didn't realize was coming so fast... this never happened in Indonesia.
To be in tune with God, and oneself is something that I really loved while I was there. I knew what was going on, and what details God was working on in me... and now- I can only glimpse the surface, because I have no time to dig deeper and reflect with God.
that's not okay.
So I've decided to start blogging a bit here and there throughout the day, so that by the end of the week I have at least a blog about something, telling where I am physically, emotionally, spiritually, or mentally.
Because writing is one of those skills that God does want me to use, that's a fact.
Just recently, I was sick with a cold that I caught from Alan, so for 4 days straight we fought the urge to sleep during class and be negative together. This was only the second time that I've been sick since coming home from Indonesia, and it was not very fun. I ate, slept, and survived going to classes and participating minimally.
Only at the end of the 4th day when I had to entirely slow down my routine and glimpse God from the corners in order to make it through the day- did I realize something through RCIA, the Catholic class I've been going to...
I realized that God brings sickness for a reason, because beforehand we somewhere had been led astray, so usually something happens to grab our attention to bring us back to Him.
And so I started to search, and in order to search, I had to get quiet and start spending more time with Him than I have for the entire semester combined. I've started to read books, devotionals, and pray through writing more than twice daily to get my feet entirely sinking into God's quicksand of love.
God slowed me down- in the chaos of this Christmas, i don't see Christmas. I see God's love, and finally settling down with Him to write blogs, to understand what's happening internally with me, to see how I've been growing, to reflect, and to push on with positive and God-inspired actions and plans.
It's just the start of the holiday season... says everyone on the media-- and it's also just the start of an internally journey through the Holy Spirit and his works-- with God.
:)